Boyfriend problem......?

ok this just to get someones opinion on what im going through i know what im going to do already just want some reurance, i cant ask my friends... me and the guy i want are on the verge of breaking up. And i was holding back a bit from him, but he hasnt held back at all until i told her i was holding back a bit. and he starts treating me a bit differently, i notice it but i didnt take it into account until he told me the next time i see him it'll be the last time. and he told me all the reasons why and there the thing im trying to change about myself. when i see him what should i do? i told her i've basically been trying and i want him. but i havent told him that in the past until this point came. and now all i want to do is tell him i want to follow my heart and that i truely want to be with him cuz he's everything i ever wanted. Im going to try and keep us together but i just wanted to know what others thought. I mean i caused him a lot of stress with my whole family drama and i really didnt meant to. now im thinking more clearly about everything he has to offer putting my feelings to the side and thinking without my heart. but in the end i come up with the same thing and my emotions kick back in...