I am inlove with my best friend from 17 years ago. But he chose the ex-psycho girlfriend, I am broken hearted!?

I loved this guy since we were 16 years old, we reconnected as friends a while ago, he was in a bad relationship, left her for the 3rd time, since she is married. We met after 17 years and the EX did not leave him alone. He went home, feeling the happiest he has ever in 5 years. asked me to spread his dad ashes with him, I bought a plane ticket, was due to go on tuesda 06/28/10, he said he chose me to be with because he said, I was good for him, to him and for his kids, which he can not see because of her habbits. 3 days before i go, he is with her, I am out of 700 dollars and he is allowing her to text me! He has not even said why? I am in so much pain, I cry everyday, because I don't understand why? I was willing to move mountains for him, he made my heart skip a beat, and now I cry! I have awlays been in love with him, he sent me roses, he wrote me poems, he proclaimed his love to me.. I was so upsset when he hurt me, I felt like life was not worth living. I am married, but I want out, and I was so happy when my first love reappeared, I feel he lied...Why would he want to be with a woman, that reads his texts, don't have a job, and makes so he can't see his kids, because his entire family does not like her. I wanna ne honest and I want you all to be honest..This is an old love that has never died. I want him back to me..but I don't think he know how to cut the strings...