What do you think? Please help. (long)?

Here's what i think: if it's taking you this long to get over her, chances are, she's still thinking about you. i think you need to talk to her, but don't come on too strong. come on lightly. you have to win her back if you feel this way. tell her that you've thought about the past, and regret acting the way you did, and say what you said here: you spent so much time reflecting on how you could be a better person for those you care about. you don't want to cause any more negativity. don't be forward, but be persistent. if it's meant to be, it will find it's way. good luck.